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Mind Like a Tornado, Prayer Like a Whisper: Why the Jesus Prayer Works for My ADHD Brain (and Maybe Yours Too)

Saw Thunderbolts last night. Solid Marvel flick, no politics shoved down your esophagus. But I noticed something (slight spoiler): the antagonist was defeated by therapy. Same thing in the last Hulk arc, where Red Hulk’s rage was quenched by mindfulness during the climactic battle. Same vibe in Daredevil: Born Again. Yeah, I’m a nerd and I can only reference superhero movies, but I’ve always loved mutants, misfits, underdogs, and flawed vigilantes. Maybe we’re projecting our collective mental state into our art… or imitating it. Probably both.

I always thought everyone lived in a constant state of fight or flight. I didn’t know that’s what it was called, I just thought it was normal to feel like a low-level superhero, always scanning for the next explosion. Not buildings, emotions. People’s tones. The vibe shift in a room. I figured everyone else was lying awake at night with a buzzing narrator in their head. Kinda like a comic book- at least that is how I hyped myself up into thinking it was normal.

But I started to notice things other people didn’t seem to deal with. Like getting paralyzed by a simple task. I remember lying on my dorm bed sophomore year, staring at the ceiling for hours, unable to start a paper I knew I could crush in thirty minutes… eventually. I always pulled it off in the ninth hour. Saved the day with a decent-enough C+, but it cost me hundreds of hours of peace.

I just thought I was lazy. Or dramatic. I didn’t know what executive function was. I just knew that replying to emails sometimes felt like climbing Everest. Need someone to reorganize your bookshelf instead of paying the water bill? I’m your guy. I drank (drink) Red Bulls like water just to push through the fog, but really, I was (am) self-medicating. Caffeine is a stimulant. It helps focus. My emotional reactions were way out of proportion. I was always forever upbeat with coworkers and guests, but I’d drop a ketchup bottle and punch the fridge. Then I’d be fine. Wounded pride, nothing more. I am a volcano, quick to erupt, quick to quiet. A dry, vague text could send me into a 48-hour spiral. “We need to talk”? Instant nausea.

The more I’ve learned about ADHD, the more boxes got checked. And yeah, I used to roll my eyes at the diagnosis. Thought it was just a label to justify medicating hyper kids. Maybe it is overused sometimes. Maybe tech saturation and sugar and modern busy-tizzy life are frying our brains like soy bacon in coconut oil. But that doesn’t change the fact that, looking back, it explains everything.

Especially when I realized I wasn’t just behind, I was also severely dyslexic. I didn’t learn to read through phonics like everyone else. I taught myself by memorizing the shape of whole words, like symbols. Reading wasn’t decoding. It was pattern recognition. Looking back, it’s wild that I ever made it through school, let alone grew to love Scripture. But that’s how my brain survived: by compensating in silence.

It also makes sense why I found a home in, and exceled in restaurants, industries built on chaos and grit. I could see ten things at once during a dinner rush and know exactly what needed to happen. I was kitchen Neo watching tickets fly in slow motion. But at home, I’d freeze over a dirty dish or unravel from a calendar invite.

That same wiring carried into my spiritual life. As a convert, I fell in love with the Church, but structure was always a struggle. I’d start novenas and forget by day three. Loved the Rosary, but couldn’t stay consistent. I’d binge audio Bible, then ghost it for months. I’d get pumped about a new prayer rule and abandon it after a week. Exodus 90? Bro, Exodus 8ish maybe. Podcasts? I’m golden. Background noise lines up with stimming and white-knuckles me through the tedious stuff.

Sometimes our own expectations become our noose. I thought holiness meant productivity, consistency, measurable progress. But over and over, Scripture speaks of long-suffering. Of endurance. Of patience, not just with others, but with yourself. The reformers had sola Scriptura. But maybe for us, frazzled, compulsive, trying to white-knuckle our way to holiness, it’s sola patientia that saves. As James writes, “Let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing” (James 1:4). And again in Luke’s Gospel: “By your patience you will gain your souls” (Luke 21:19).

I thought I was meant to be a monk in my mind. I knew what was good. I just couldn’t stick with it.

Except one thing.

The Jesus Prayer.

It’s been my steady companion for almost 15 years now. I won’t get into the history or theology here. I’ve written on that elsewhere. But it’s the one devotion that’s never left me. The one I return to, hour by hour, sometimes minute by minute. Sometimes whispered. Sometimes just breathed.

At first, I worried I was being too naturalistic about writing this. Like I was cheapening something sacred by pairing it with secular coping language. But the truth is, grace builds on nature, and this prayer fits the contours of my brain better than anything else. Not in a shallow way. In an incarnational way.

We’re all wired differently. Some are drawn to chant. Others to Scripture study or the Divine Office. And sometimes those preferences are rooted in deep places: trauma, personality, diet, neurodivergence, digestive issues, things we can’t fully parse but that shape us. That’s the beauty of Catholicism. It doesn’t demand uniformity in your devotions. It’s universal. The Church gives us countless tools, more devotions than insects in creation, each one alive with purpose. You do you boo…

So if you can’t sit still in Adoration,
If patristic texts knock you out cold,
If litanies feel more like drudgery than fire,

Try this.

Not as a replacement.
As a seed.
A doorway.
A whispered Name that will shape you from the inside out and bring everything else into focus.

Because this prayer isn’t just words.
It’s a Person.
And He’s already listening.

Quick caveat: this isn’t therapy, and it’s not spiritual direction. If you’re dealing with serious behavioral patterns or wounds, talk to a good therapist or a wise priest. The Jesus Prayer isn’t a self-help trick. It’s vertical. It reaches toward God. But sometimes (most times) the horizontal gets steadied along the way. That’s not a reduction. That’s grace.

Similar to fasting. It has real, measurable effects on the body and brain. That doesn’t make it less spiritual. We’re not souls trapped in meat suits. We’re body-soul composites. What we do with one always echoes in the other.

Why the Jesus Prayer Works for My ADHD Brain

Here’s why this prayer has stuck with me when others haven’t—and why it might work for you too:

1. It syncs with your breath
You don’t even have to think about it. The structure of the prayer naturally fits your inhale and exhale:
“Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God” (inhale)
“Have mercy on me, a sinner” (exhale)
It’s breath work without the wellness app.

2. It’s simple but bottomless
No mental gymnastics required. One line. Always available. Always enough. It’s the opposite of prayer performance- it is the groan of the spirit.

3. It gives your mind something to loop
ADHD brains love repetition—loops, mantras, refrains. The Jesus Prayer becomes like a sacred earworm that actually calms you instead of draining you.

4. It grounds you in the present
Instead of getting hijacked by past regrets or future dread, the prayer tethers you to now. It recenters your attention, not by looking at yourself, but by looking at Him.

5. It engages your body
You don’t just say it. You breathe it. You feel it. It becomes part of your pulse, your steps, your pace. It is mindfulness without the post modern baggage. A full-body cue for presence and peace.

6. It’s a holy form of stimming
Let’s be real, our brains stim. We tap, pace, repeat. The Jesus Prayer becomes a sacred stim: repetitive, rhythmic, and deeply formative.

7. It helps other devotions stick
Once internalized, the prayer can run in the background and support your focus during other devotions. The Rosary. Lectio Divina. Even the Mass. It becomes spiritual scaffolding.

8. The chotki gives you something to fidget with
Prayer rope equals tactile anchor. You can roll the knots while breathing the Name. It’s a spiritual fidget tool that links body, breath, and attention to Christ.

9. It interrupts impulsive loops
The Jesus Prayer can act as a pattern-breaker. When you’re about to spiral, numb out, or click into something destructive, even one repetition can short-circuit the habit.

10. It works anywhere
You don’t need a candle, a plan, or even motivation. You just say the Name. And grace shows up.

This isn’t a magic trick. It’s not a dopamine hack. It’s a relationship.

And for people like us, the misfits, the scatterbrained, the deeply sincere but constantly overwhelmed, it might be the most patient path home.

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What is the Coptic Calendar?

The Coptic calendar is one of the oldest systems still in use today, carrying thousands of years of history and tradition. Rooted in ancient Egyptian timekeeping, it’s been adapted by the Coptic Orthodox Church to mark liturgical seasons, feast days, and the commemoration of saints. Known as the Anno Martyrum (A.M.) calendar, or “Year of the Martyrs,” it’s a unique blend of Egypt’s ancient heritage and the Christian faith, reflecting the Coptic Church’s deep respect for both time and sacrifice.

Origins of the Coptic Calendar: Ancient Egyptian Roots

The origins of the Coptic calendar trace back to the ancient Egyptian civil calendar, which was one of the earliest systems developed to organize time. This calendar, known as the Egyptian solar calendar, was based on a 365-day year, divided into three agricultural seasons: Akhet (the inundation or flood season), Peret (the planting season), and Shemu (the harvest season). Each season had four months, making a total of twelve 30-day months. At the end of the year, five additional “epagomenal” days were added to reach 365 days.

The transition from this ancient Egyptian calendar to the Coptic calendar came about as Christianity spread throughout Egypt. In the year 284 AD, the Copts adopted this calendar system and transformed it into what’s now known as the Anno Martyrum calendar to honor the memory of martyrs persecuted under Emperor Diocletian, whose reign is remembered for its severe persecution of Christians. The year 284 was chosen as the beginning of the Coptic calendar, marking the start of a time that would see thousands of Christians martyred for their faith.

 

 

Structure of the Coptic Calendar: Months and Seasons

The Coptic calendar remains quite similar to its ancient Egyptian predecessor, with a few additions for liturgical purposes:

  • Months: The calendar year is divided into 12 months, each containing exactly 30 days, followed by a “small month” known as Pi Kogi Enavot (or the “Little Month”), which has five days in a common year and six days in a leap year.

  • Names of the Months: Each month has its own name derived from ancient Egyptian, reflecting the agricultural rhythms of the Nile Valley:

    1. Thout
    2. Paopi
    3. Hathor
    4. Kiahk
    5. Tobe
    6. Meshir
    7. Paremhat
    8. Paremoude
    9. Pashons
    10. Paoni
    11. Epip
    12. Mesori

The names reflect the agricultural and seasonal nature of the calendar, linking each month to the ancient Egyptian way of life.

  • The Little Month: At the end of Mesori, there are five or six additional days, known as the “Little Month.” In leap years, it’s extended to six days, aligning the calendar to the solar year.

Liturgical Seasons in the Coptic Calendar

The Coptic calendar is foundational for the liturgical life of the Coptic Orthodox Church, guiding the dates of fasts, feasts, and commemorations. Some of the key liturgical seasons include:

  1. The Season of Advent (Nativity Fast): This fast begins on the 16th of Hathor and continues until the Feast of the Nativity on the 29th of Kiahk (January 7th in the Gregorian calendar). The fast spans 43 days, calling the faithful to a period of preparation and spiritual reflection before Christmas.

  2. The Season of Great Lent: The dates for Lent vary each year, but the season traditionally falls around the month of Meshir, leading up to the Feast of the Resurrection, or Easter.

  3. Kiahk: Known as the “Month of Praise,” Kiahk is dedicated to preparations for the birth of Christ. Churches hold special services featuring hymns, praises, and the unique melodies of the Coptic heritage, inviting the faithful into a deeper sense of anticipation for the Nativity.

  4. Holy Week (Pascha): Holy Week, or Pascha, is the most sacred time of the year in the Coptic Church. The dates are determined by the Coptic calendar and fall near the months of Paremhat or Paremoude. It’s a week of intense fasting, prayer, and reflection on the events of Christ’s Passion, culminating in the celebration of the Resurrection.

  5. The Fast of the Apostles: This fast honors the early apostles of the Church, beginning the day after Pentecost (the Feast of the Descent of the Holy Spirit) and lasting until the Feast of St. Peter and St. Paul on the 5th of Epip.

Major Feasts and Commemorations

The Coptic calendar is punctuated with major feasts, some of which align with the broader Christian calendar, while others are unique to the Coptic tradition:

  1. The Feast of Nayrouz: This is the Coptic New Year, celebrated on the first day of Thout (around September 11 or 12 in the Gregorian calendar). The Feast of Nayrouz is not only the start of the Coptic year but also a commemoration of the martyrs who gave their lives for their faith, especially during the era of Diocletian. It’s a day of both celebration and solemn remembrance.

  2. Feast of the Nativity: Celebrated on 29 Kiahk, the Coptic Christmas on January 7th, this feast marks the birth of Jesus Christ. Copts prepare with fasting, special prayers, and a midnight liturgy to celebrate the Incarnation.

  3. The Feast of the Resurrection (Easter): Celebrated after the 55-day Great Lent, Easter is the highest feast in the Coptic calendar, commemorating Christ’s victory over death and the hope of salvation for all humanity.

  4. The Feast of the Cross: Celebrated twice a year—on the 17th of Thout and again on the 10th of Paremhat—the Feast of the Cross honors the discovery of the true cross by St. Helena. The cross holds a place of special significance in Coptic spirituality, seen as the ultimate symbol of Christ’s sacrifice and love.

Spiritual Significance of the Coptic Calendar

The Coptic calendar is more than a timekeeping tool; it’s a rhythm of spiritual life. The calendar’s liturgical seasons and feast days help believers journey through the life of Christ, the saints, and the Church’s rich heritage. The saints are honored throughout the year on their feast days, allowing Coptic Christians to connect with those who came before them, especially those who lived and died for their faith.

By structuring life around fasting, feasting, and commemoration, the Coptic calendar fosters a sense of timelessness, anchoring believers in the past, present, and future of their faith. Each day is marked by a saint or event, a reminder that each moment holds a connection to something larger than oneself.

Conclusion: A Timeless Tradition

The Coptic calendar is a testament to the resilience and devotion of the Coptic Orthodox Church. By following the rhythms of this ancient calendar, Copts connect with a tradition that goes back millennia, linking their faith to the legacy of their ancestors and honoring the memory of those who sacrificed for their beliefs. This calendar, grounded in ancient Egypt but redefined by Christian faith, is a profound reminder of God’s presence throughout history and an invitation to live each day with faith, discipline, and gratitude.

 

 

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A Light in Cairo: The Remarkable Apparition of Our Lady of Zeitoun

The Marian apparition known as Our Lady of Zeitoun is one of the most fascinating events in modern Coptic Orthodox history. Unlike many other Marian apparitions, this one didn’t happen in a remote village to a select few. It happened in the bustling city of Cairo, Egypt, and was witnessed by tens of thousands of people over a period of years. The story of Our Lady of Zeitoun brings together mystery, hope, and a sense of wonder that transcends denominational lines, drawing Muslims, Christians, skeptics, and believers alike.

The Setting: Zeitoun, Cairo

The apparition took place in Zeitoun, a district of Cairo known for its strong Coptic Christian community. The site itself was the Coptic Orthodox Church of St. Mary, a humble church that, according to local tradition, stood along the route the Holy Family took during their flight into Egypt. This church, with its distinctive dome and towers, became the focal point for a series of events that would captivate Egypt and the world.

The First Sightings: A Surprising Appearance

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Tasbeha
The Coptic Tradition of Midnight Praises

Often held on Saturday nights before Sunday’s Divine Liturgy, Tasbeha connects worshippers with ancient Christian roots and the monastic tradition, while also sharing resonant elements with other liturgical practices.

The Structure of Tasbeha: A Hymn of Praise

The word Tasbeha itself means “praise,” and it’s not only a title but a purpose. Tasbeha follows a consistent structure that guides worshippers through stages of prayer, each with its own deep meaning and purpose. The service generally begins with the First Hoos, which includes portions from the Song of Moses in Exodus 15, recounting God’s victory over Pharaoh and the salvation of His people. This part of the service calls to mind the power of God in delivering His people from bondage—a theme echoed in the prayers of thanksgiving within Tasbeha.

This continues with the Second Hoos from Psalm 135, known as the “Praise the Lord” psalm, and the Third Hoos, which is the Song of the Three Holy Youths from the book of Daniel. The Third Hoos is particularly beloved because it celebrates God’s protection and steadfastness, recalling the story of the three youths in the fiery furnace. Just as God preserved these saints, Tasbeha reminds worshippers of His enduring faithfulness.

The service moves into the Fourth Hoos, which incorporates various Psalms. This is followed by the Theotokia—hymns that honor the Virgin Mary. The Theotokia reflects on her unique role in salvation history, as the one who bore God incarnate. Throughout the service, worshippers also chant the Doxologies (prayers of glorification) and conclude with hymns in praise of Christ, celebrating His role as Redeemer and Lord.

Roots in Scripture and Monasticism

Tasbeha has deep scriptural roots, as shown in the themes drawn from Exodus, Psalms, and Daniel. This focus on scripture reflects a shared reverence for holy texts seen across Orthodox Christian and Jewish traditions. Much like Jewish synagogue services, which feature psalms and scripture readings central to worship, Tasbeha takes scriptural passages and reimagines them as songs of praise, intended to unite worshippers with the events, heroes, and faith in God represented in these stories.

Tasbeha’s current form developed largely within the monastic tradition, beginning as an extension of the monastic hours and particularly the Midnight Hour. Monastics in the deserts of Egypt would gather for all-night vigils, chanting Psalms and hymns as a means of continual praise. In this way, Tasbeha embodies the spirit of monasticism within parish life, calling each worshipper to a practice of prayer, praise, and meditation on God’s works.

Hymns and Chants: Elevating the Heart

Central to Tasbeha is its music—a tapestry of hymns and chants performed in the traditional Coptic language. The hymns are not simply sung; they are carefully chanted, often with complex melodies that create an atmosphere of reverence and awe. The melodies are slow, repetitive, and contemplative, inviting worshippers to meditate deeply on the words. This practice shares similarities with other forms of Orthodox and even Jewish worship, where chant serves to elevate the words, creating a spiritual experience that transcends ordinary speech.

A unique aspect of Coptic chant is its varied tempo. Some hymns are slow and solemn, while others, especially those toward the end of Tasbeha, are faster and more jubilant. The idea is to progress from contemplation to celebration, as if the soul is being lifted through different stages of joy in God’s presence. This pattern reflects the journey from preparation to union with God—a concept familiar in other liturgical traditions but expressed uniquely in the rhythm and style of Coptic music.

The Role of the Congregation: Participation in Praise

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